When to Walk Away

 I have applied for the same job a couple of times and I keep getting passed up.  I am a woman of a particular age, color,  and I have two degrees.  Yeah I am salty and know I deserve more than what they are giving me.

So a couple of years ago, my kiddo attempted to commit suicide.  My boss was aware of what was going on because I told him.  I needed him to understand what was going on and I needed grace, which is what they said matter, transparency.  Then these jobs became available that I was not good enough for because I had been written up.  I watched people come after me, succeeding and moving, people that came after me.  And yet, this girl was benched.  

I have tried to do everything I could to make myself viable but it is not being seen.  They keep choosing the white girl.  As if they need any more privilege.  I have two degrees and so close to a PhD that I took a pause on because, why would I need that in my role, as some managers say.

So what  this comes down to is I am VERY upset.  

I have done so much.  I have taken claims I shouldn't because I need the experience, right?

I have taken on being a good team player and have lost sleep for shit that doesn't matter. 

I am done now.  I will not be taking any more claims that do not belong to me.  You people can have them.  And I will never say this company does anything for people of ethnicity.  I am done.