The Next Step

I am now at the last step in completing my BA in Marketing.  Finally, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.  As nervous as I am about having to enter the real world, I am overly excited about the up-coming events that I have planned.  Aside from completing school, I am now in the process of buying a house (fingers crossed because I found one that I am so in love with!!) After a few months months off, I plan to return to school to obtain my Master's degree. 
I really do have a lot on my plate and cannot allow any man to control my thoughts so much that it makes me weak.
In the near future, you may find my in the gym.  I am challenging myself to complete an 8 week boot camp to get back into shape.  Maryn is amazing but she ruined my body!!

OK So the Day Has Started off BAD!!!

Today I woke-up and realized that for the last 3 nights I have dreamt of Nick.  What is going on?  I have all the support in the world and yet all I do is think about a guy that was not my type in the first place.  He is hairy, disgustingly hairy, his teeth are horrible, and he blows "farmer's blows", which is when you plug one nostril and blow whatever  is lodge in the other side out unto whatever is surrounding you.  Can you say COUNTRY!! He only started doing this at the end of the relationship, I guess he got too comfortable.  How could I ever have lowered my standards so much as to be with someone like him.  He is so dis functional, as I can be at times, but at least I can admit it.  His parents support his lousy behavior, especially his mom and puts her nose in where it does not belong.  The bottom line, DO NOT date a man who lives 15 minutes from his parents.  It is NOT a good thing.  They stopped by unannounced like 3 to 4 times a week and even mowed his lawn for him.  GIRLS BEWARE he is a bad man who just so happens to be a mamma's boy and his name is NICK CRAWFORD!!!

Momma Said there Would Be Days Like This!!!

I have good days and bad days, ohhh and I can tell when it will be a bad day!  The past month has been bad days.  I thought I knew what it meant to hate, I had no clue.!!  Have you ever awakened and wished that you can take back the last 3 years of your life?  I do,  I wish it all the time and it makes me feel awful because if I could do it again, I would never have allowed myself to fall for Nick , which means NO BABY!!!  That part of my life could wait. 

Realization I CAN Do It On My Own

Initailly I hung onto him like if he went away, I would die.  I did not.  Life has a way of giving you all the things you need.  My dream as a young child was to travel and have a career, not a child.  I guess God had different plans.  I was suppose to be a mom.  I have a beautiful happy baby girl who is so smart and so amazing.  Without her, I do believe the split would have been much harder.  Nick showed no compassion, sympathy, or any parts of having a heart.  Ladies beware, he is a momma's boy!!!!  He does not know what he wants, is always broke and would rather live at home with his parents than dare to venture out into this world, which has so much to offer.  As I have been told and no say, "HIS LOSS!!!!!!!"

First week of being single with a baby!

So I thought it would be hard to leave the father of my child but with the help of my aunt, the transition of losing 190 pounds of dead weight has been pretty easy.  I have more help with the baby and am, by far, more happy.  Please explain to me why some men feel that women need them.  Well, we don't, we want them and when we are fed up we want them less and less.  Nick was the man I thought I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and now I know that it was never meant to be but I would never want to change the fact that we made a beautiful baby girl!